Just my fucking luck...

A Water bottle opened in my purse day before yesterday and I just noticed it yesterday.

I didn't noticed anything but whiped the water off.

I plugged it into my computer and it was fine.

But then when I took it out,

I left to go do something.

Came back in my room and it had a white screen,

I couldn't tell what the high pitched sound was coming from.

But it was coming from my ipod.

Right now MOST of the water is out of the screen because I put it under some light and it dried it up.

But right now it's gonna sit in rice for a week.

After I save some money I am gonna buy a new ipod cuz lord knows I need it haha.

But ugh that is seriously my luck. -_-

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It hurts me to hear..

I really pains me to see my mother in pain.

September 21st... a date I am dreading.

Not only school will be starting on the 23rd or around there,

my dad is suggesting to just quit finiacial aid and just wait for winter quarter for the palgrant.

Which I wouldn't mind doing.

But on september 21st,

My mother is getting BOTH. Not just one but BOTH knee's replaced.

She is not going to be living with me for probably a month.

She'll probably be in a care facility and what not,

but I am so afraid,

she had a fight with my uncle and he told her she probably isn't going to walk again,

so right now I fear she may not be able to walk again,

but I will hope for the best.

But on a lighter note I finished watching/catching up on weeds. :)

Bye guys

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I feel the pressure...

It's getting closer now...

-those lines in paramore's song are so true to how I'm feeling right now.

Once upon a time,

when I was in 9th grade I FULLY decided HEY I wanna be a photographer.

Prior ideas to what I wanted to be was a computer engineer, and a fashion designer but then I found out later I really can't draw and I'm not as good at computers then some of my friends.

But from 9th to 12th grade I wanted to be a photographer,

until my mom had said somethings,

like dealing with how I was going to fail.

So that blew my dream out the window.

THANKS MOTHER.

But now I am still undecided and started college well up again this fall..

And right now I feel like breaking down,

I wish I could just go somewhere to think,

somewhere I am not pressured to think about what I'm going to be.

Right now I just wish I had someone to cuddle with and to talk to.

But right now I feel empty, and alone.

My life is slightly complicated right now.

Just with everything

I have to start paying my finacial aid back, I get my palgrant though which is fucking amazing. They pay for E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G Which I need right now, I can't be in debt to finical aid for the rest or a couple years of my life. you know?

But back to college

it's so stressful right now.

My mother is pressureing me,

she is suggesting stuff I don't and will not ever do.

Ugh

There is no hope right now.

I wanna do photography as like a side-job yeah know

but idk what i wanna do for a real job...

Any suggestions?

All is welcomed.

Night everyone

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