-those lines in paramore's song are so true to how I'm feeling right now.
Once upon a time,
when I was in 9th grade I FULLY decided HEY I wanna be a photographer.
Prior ideas to what I wanted to be was a computer engineer, and a fashion designer but then I found out later I really can't draw and I'm not as good at computers then some of my friends.
But from 9th to 12th grade I wanted to be a photographer,
until my mom had said somethings,
like dealing with how I was going to fail.
So that blew my dream out the window.
THANKS MOTHER.
But now I am still undecided and started college well up again this fall..
And right now I feel like breaking down,
I wish I could just go somewhere to think,
somewhere I am not pressured to think about what I'm going to be.
Right now I just wish I had someone to cuddle with and to talk to.
But right now I feel empty, and alone.
My life is slightly complicated right now.
Just with everything
I have to start paying my finacial aid back, I get my palgrant though which is fucking amazing. They pay for E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G Which I need right now, I can't be in debt to finical aid for the rest or a couple years of my life. you know?
But back to college
it's so stressful right now.
My mother is pressureing me,
she is suggesting stuff I don't and will not ever do.
Ugh
There is no hope right now.
I wanna do photography as like a side-job yeah know
but idk what i wanna do for a real job...
Any suggestions?
All is welcomed.
Night everyone
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first thing's first ::infinite huggles::
ReplyDeletei think you should still do photography. if that's what you love to do, i think you should do it. also, you don't have to decide RIGHT NOW what you want to do. i suggest that talk to an academic advisor at your school. they can help you figure out a major that compliments your photograpy. maybe journalism? then you could perhaps get into photo-journalism.
i know it seems overwhelming now but you'll get through it. just don't let anyone tell you that what you want to do is worthless or impossible. you're smart enough to do what you want. and if you ever need to talk, you have my number so txt me.
ily!
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